Northern Lights
There was a very dark period of time in my life. I suffered from sexual harassment at work. The perpetrator rested her breasts on my arms and clamped my arm with her breasts after she expressing milk. The warmth and wet made me very uncomfortable. She touched my back, wrest and rested her hands on my buttocks. She only behaved that disgustingly when there was only she and I in the same room. I reported to my line manager. My line manager didn't believe me and she reported to the HR. I didn't know what she told HR. But I just knew the perpetrator was her friend afterwards. Both of line manager and HR didn't believe me. The line manager canceled my promotion interview and terminated my working contract.
It destroyed my self confidence. I was in a terrible status. I went to local churches a lot in order to seek for a piece of peace and support. It was a very dark afternoon. I closed my eyes and sit on a bench on the back of a chapel. Suddenly, there was a thought coming into my mind.
"Don't worry, son. Everything will pass. There is beautiful northern lights even on the darkest night in North Europe. There is always bright light at the end of the tunnel. Set yourself free. You have not done anything wrong. It will eventually ends when you settle down."
I painted these 2 paintings of aurora. The agitated sea waves represented my anger and hopeless mind. The mountains convinced myself to be strong and stop blaming myself. Sadly, people don't believe male could suffer from sexual harassment from female colleagues at works, especially when I am a gay man and I am terrify with intimacy from female.